Saturday, August 31, 2013

Song of the Day: Saturday

This song has been jostling around in my head for most of the week. Normally I don't enjoy Christian music. Too much sickeningly sweet happiness, in general. But this one has stuck with me. It's got a bit of a hook that has embedded it in my brain. Interesting that it just popped in my head again this week.

Friday, August 30, 2013

Song of the Day: Thursday

Not sure why, but this song was in my head as I fell asleep last night. It's definitely a bit moody. But, that pretty much every thing by REM--even their happy songs!

Song of the Day: Friday

The weekend is finally here! I don't get a long weekend for Labor Day because I volunteered to go in on Monday, but I do get two days off from.

I ran a few errands when I left work today. One of the local radio stations has "Totally 80s" weekends. This song reminded me of my childhood and how music was so magical and fun.

There was so creativity and imagination in these videos--at least to me as a country girl who grew up with with bad tv reruns from my mom's childhood. Just the idea of dramatizing a song with a video was so new and amazing to me. Even looking at it with adult eyes and seeing how cheesy every thing is now.

Tuesday, August 27, 2013

Song of the Day: Tuesday

There is a boy that I like. Actually he is a man. The only problem is that I know he likes a friend. But, I'm not sure if he is interested in more. I certainly am interested in more.

This song seems appropriate for lovers angst.

Sunday, August 25, 2013

Song of the Day: Sunday

I haven't been sleeping well the past week. Some of it is hormonal. Yea! Some of it is stress from various factors in my life. Yea! I've been getting more sleep than normal, but it's fitful at best. I wake up with a headache  (migraine) and fall asleep with a migraine. I find myself clenching my teeth and my jaw at random times during the day and no amount of trying keeps me from doing it again.

I'm doing my best to avoid the death spiral of "Is this all there is?" I'm hopeful that things will get better that something great is waiting on the other side of this THING. But, it's always hard to be cheerful in the midst of a funk.

This song has been on my mind today. I like Regina Spektor. I'm not sure why. I just do.

Song of the Day: Saturday

I was up and out of the house early today, running errands. Pretty nice to be be on target for the things that need to be done.

For some reason, I  had the urge to listen to John Mayer. I really like his music, even though he is a bit of a douchebag. But all douchebaggery aside, this song is one that stuck with me throughout the day.

Saturday, August 24, 2013

Song of the Day: Friday

Today is one of those days that went from sugar to sh!t pretty fast. And, surprisingly, I handled myself well. I cried...a couple of times. But as sh!t was going down, I somehow had my wits about me. I asked intelligent questions, took notes, kept it together until I had my door closed and a sympathetic ear on the other end of the line. Not sure how I have other than the fact that I have been praying more.

I begin and end my day with prayer and drop it in once or twice in the middle of the day when I remember. Could that be what happened in my private hell on Friday? And, I know that things are going on to rattle my cage because I am trying to un-bollocks myself when it comes to relationships.

My general habit, when people hurt me, is to shut them out. It makes sense to stop the hurting. But, when I reviewed the days goings-on I recognized this as an opportunity to shut people out and I just brushed it away. Kinda cool!

Anyway, here's a song to Our Lady who watches over us.

Song of the Day: Thursday

Earlier this week I was feeling a bit retro. Not sure why. I played this song 4 or 5 times in a row. It definitely shows my 80s roots. I wouldn't have it any other way.

Wednesday, August 21, 2013

Song of the Day: Wednesday

The week has moved along at an awkward pace. I returned to work today and was just a bit of a zombie. No light, little joy. I think I laughed at a couple of things that people said, but mostly I kept my head down and tried not to think about how much I'd rather be in bed. Insomnia. Depression. Funk. Either and all seem to be the correct term.

This song has been playing in my head today. It's a bit awkward because the meaning behind this song is not what I mean. I just like the chorus: "It gets better. It gets better. It gets better. We'll get better."

Song of the Day: Tuesday

I have had a rough couple of days. Monday night I couldn't fall asleep. So, interspersed with my attempts to catch some Zs, I read. Next thing I know it's 5am and I'm still awake. I only got two hours of sleep. I stayed home from work hoping to get caught up. And again I could not sleep until the afternoon where I got three hours and seemingly ruined myself for the night. I did get to sleep, fitfully. I don't know how much sleep I got because it's best not to count when one has insomnia.

Anyway, this song seems apropos.

Monday, August 19, 2013

Song of the Day: Monday

Tonight I got off my duff and went for a walk. It's been a while since I've actually done any kind of physical activity and the scale has shown me that my body is not happy.

While I was walking, this song kept popping in my head. It's weirdly appropriate. I've begun reading a book about how we close ourselves off when we've been hurt. It is a bit mind-blowing and oddly apropos for this period of my life. One way that I do it is that I avoid difficult conversations when I worry how people will respond.

Tonight I put on my big girl panties and made the call. The person was not available to talk, but I've still opened the door for the conversation.

Sunday, August 18, 2013

Song of the Day: Sunday

I'm Back! It's been a long time since I've been on this blog. I do apologize to my one follower: sorry! It's been a rough few months, but I have resolved to write again.

It's actually only been in the past week that songs have been blaring insistently in my head. And, today I have finally picked up my computer to share with you.

This song has been playing in my head tonight. I find it rather ironic because it's a break up song. But, what sticks with me is her assurance to him that she will be fine once "he" is gone. My favorite parts? "I've got my feet on the ground and I don't go to sleep to dream" and "This mind, this body, and this voice cannot be stifled by your deviant ways...."