Song of the Day: Sunday

Today has been a calm day. I woke up with the urge to do laundry and dishes--after I adjusted all of my clocks. I stayed in, avoiding the weather. I called my grandmother and had a short and frustrating conversation. And my friend V called tonight.

All evening I've had this song in my head.

Song of the Day: Saturday

Today I spent the day with L. We started by walking her dog. We then went shopping before going back to her house. I promptly began cooking for Ladies' Night part II.

A came over to join us. We had West African Peanut Soup over rice and Frozen Sangria. We watched "A Walk in the Clouds" and "Happy Feet." Tonight was my first time watching "Happy Feet" and though A and L were very loud and obnoxious during the viewing, I really enjoyed it. I want to see it again--without the chatter.

Since watching that movie, this song is in my head. Although in the movie, it's a bit different. Either way it's Prince and this is a good thing.

Song of the Day: Friday

Tonight my friend L called Ladies' Night. Her other half is out of town for the next week so we all congregated for dinner and drinks--really strong tequila, triple sec, and lime juice also known as Margartitas.

Dinner was great. Soft tacos. They had Shrimp and spinach with the fixins. For me, vegan's delight: Lentils and potatoes with tomatoes; pickled carrots, jalapenos, and garlic; tofutti sour cream; peanuts; and, a bit of cayenne. Everything was served on a tapioca tortilla. Nice and Yummy!

Anyway, this song seemed appropro since the call went out. (Sorry about the plaid outfit!!!) Luckily, tonight was just round one!

Song of the Day: Wednesday

Wednesday was a good day. I got lots of sleep on Tuesday night. I felt really good, but groggy--like I could have slept much longer--when I woke up in the morning. And the day felt good, if long.

This song stuck with me throughout the day. I know it as a Buena Vista Social Club song, but I like how different the Gipsy Kings version is.

Song of the Day: Tuesday

On Tuesday, I started feeling spacey and queasy. Sleeplessness does that to me. So, I came home, worked out, showered, had dinner and passed out around 9:30pm. I woke up some time in the night to turn off the bedside lamp and didn't wake again until morning. I't was about 7:30am when I turned on NPR, but I was awake long before that. It felt good to sleep and I still felt a little sticky--like I couldn't lift myself from the mattress--when I got up at 8:45am to get ready for work. I spent about half an hour digging my car out from the snow.

Anyway, when I got home from work, my downstairs neighbors were playing this song. Pretty cool! And, definitely glad I wasn't trying to sleep while it was on. I used to think this was CeeLo. Glad to be corrected.

Song of the Day: Monday

I stayed home today. I didn't get much sleep last night. Saturday night I fell asleep for good around 8:30, after falling asleep watching a half-hour show that I'd DVRed; I woke up a couple of times during the night, but didn't wake up for good until 7:30am. I thought I was just catching up on sleep. So, when I went to sleep last night, I did not anticipate still being awake at 4am.

I read as is usual for my bedtime routine. And when I laid down, sleep would not come; actually I felt myself jerking awake whenever I started to drift off. I eventually turned on the radio since that sometimes puts me to sleep. BBC was on. Next thing I know, it's about 8:30am and I haven't slept well.  

I stayed home to try to catch up on some sleep, but I couldn't sleep. Again! I ate, showered, changed the sheets on my bed and watched a bit of telly. I also read.

So, tonight I hope to get some decent sleep. I am hoping that I am not in my insomnia phase. It would suck if I am since I am not the nicest person when I don't get enough sleep.

So, today's song: Tear You Apart by She Wants Revenge. Not sure why I've never posted it on here, but it was in my head today.

Song of the Day: Sunday

Tonight has been a night. I spent a bit of time thinking and praying, crying and mourning.

On Monday, the College of Cardinals of the Roman Catholic Church will convene to begin discussion about the issues that the Church is facing and what the Church needs in a Pope. After their discussion, they will eventually select our next Pontiff. Until then we are Pope-less (Sede Vacante).

For my part, I am partially optimistic. I am hopeful that our next pope will address the scandals that have rocked the Church--mainly the child abuse and cover up. I really want to see the Church and its leadership do right by the children who were harmed. I want an apology. I want changes. I want it made right. So that nothing like this ever happens again: the abuse or the priest shuffle and ass-covering.

But the cynical side of me is not holding my breath. I know that the kinds of things that need to happen to begin to address the harm done will tear apart the Church in such a way it will take a while rebuild. Not to say that we should protect the Church over children. I would never, ever say or imply something as wicked as that. But, I am realistic about how hierarchy works. It will take some deep honesty and humility to activate the root-level change that needs to happen. Considering how things have been handled so far, I am not at all hopeful.

So how does one respond when one's Church does not live up to the ideals upon which it was founded? I am not free to leave yet. I have no place to go; no other place where I'd want to worship. But without change, I cannot see myself raising children in such an environment. And, while I know that the I would be raising a family in a local Church where I would have more oversight, I am still not quite willing. Some of it is that I don't want to commit myself on that level; but I am not yet free to leave.

This heartbreak song, seems somewhat appropriate for my current angst. It helps that it's Adele. She's quite good at communicating so much emotion with they turn of a phrase.