Song of the Day: Sunday

I woke up rather early Sunday morning because I went to bed early Saturday night. Around 10pm I couldn't keep my eyes open. Next thing I knew it was 4:15am and I was wide awake. It was nearly 7 when I was able to get back to sleep, only to get up to go to Coney Island.

Coney Island was a lot of fun. I was worried because the weather reports predicted rain and there was a bit of a downpour at 8. But I kept the faith and went anyway. The rain cleared and the day was nice. There were moments of hotness, but overall a good day for eating "fair food" and going on rides. It would have been more fun if my friend would have been more adventuresome. It's not fun riding by oneself while one's friend takes pictures along the outside.

Anyway, I woke up with this song in my head. I originally got this as a free download and I played it over and over and over. I still like it a lot.

Song of the Day: Friday

I had today off from work. I had an appointment with the oral surgeon this morning, followed by a last minute visit to the dentist to fit my dental appliance to my implant. After a couple of hours of lazing around, I began sorting, weeding, folding and rolling my clothes. All of my closets are empty of clothes. I have one duffel that is stuffed to the gills. And, I have a suitcase and another duffel that are waiting to receive the rest of my clothes. It's crazy how much it seems that I have nothing to wear, but I have too many clothes when it's time to pack.

Most of the time I don't want to pack; I'd rather be doing something--anything--else.  But then I have to remind myself why I am working so hard. Besides, the movers will be here on Friday!

Song of the Day: Thursday

Tonight my friends had a going away party for me. Really sweet. Italian pizza and appetizers. Beer and wine. There was a game that I lost but I got the prize anyway! A youngun there flirted wildly with me and I flirted right back. Flattering if I hadn't been a teenager when he was born.

Anyway, he began singing this song tonight. He knows it from this artist. But I only know the KT Tunstall cover.

Song of the Day: Wednesday

This week has flown by so fast! I am working 4 day weeks until the movers come. I have been packing slowly but surely. I took my bike in to get a tuneup and they are already finished!!! I also bought two REI duffels to pack my clothes.

I've done a lot but there is still more to do. It made me think of this song. I remembered the song but not that it was Vanessa Williams. Apparently the Isley Brothers first performed the song, but I don't remember them. I almost forgot that Vanessa Williams had a music career....

Song of the Day: Tuesday

Today one of my coworkers began planning a going away lunch for me. She said it was to celebrate my last day. This song popped in my head. I emailed it to everyone who was invited to the lunch. Kinda funny really. My coworker asked me, "Who is the wicked witch?" I meant myself but it is possible that it could also be my job. Doesn't matter!

Song of the Day: Monday

I am not good with people--especially when I am tired. The best people skill that I ever learned was to keep my mouth shut. But there are times when a closed mouth will not do. And, tonight was one of those.

I had the late shift tonight so I didn't get to see my friends until almost 10. They are all excited for my new job and my move. I'd prefer not to talk about it. Imagine getting asked the same questions again and again by very extroverted Italians within a 20 minute period of time. And imagine every conversation involving the question "Are you happy?" along with an encouragement to find this or that friend or group in SB. With every. single. conversation. from the time you began the application process four months ago. It wasn't until last month that I figured out that the "Are you happy?" was not an existential question, but a question of whether I am pleased with the opportunity and my choice.

It was too much pressure for me. I have been by myself for so long, answering to no one and having no one actually interested in what I did unless it was for their benefit. It never occurs to me to call anyone to let them know I arrived safely because I didn't grow up having to report my whereabouts when I left the house.

I am not equipped for how to respond when so many people show an interest in me. I have gotten better at accepting praise, but accepting so much attention and the barrage of interested questions about me? Too much!

Tonight I lost it a little before I had to remind myself that I am tired and it's not their fault. With each successive question, I had to inhale first and then answer, when all I wanted to do was go home and go to bed. On my way home tonight, I realized that I need to learn to function, if not thrive, in this kind of situation. Otherwise I will end up alone. So, today's song.

Song of the Day: Sunday

I'm back in New York with dedicated internet and cell phone coverage. Yea me!! Reminds me of this song from the"Dick Tracy" soundtrack.