Song of the Day: Friday

Today is one of those days that went from sugar to sh!t pretty fast. And, surprisingly, I handled myself well. I cried...a couple of times. But as sh!t was going down, I somehow had my wits about me. I asked intelligent questions, took notes, kept it together until I had my door closed and a sympathetic ear on the other end of the line. Not sure how I have other than the fact that I have been praying more.

I begin and end my day with prayer and drop it in once or twice in the middle of the day when I remember. Could that be what happened in my private hell on Friday? And, I know that things are going on to rattle my cage because I am trying to un-bollocks myself when it comes to relationships.

My general habit, when people hurt me, is to shut them out. It makes sense to stop the hurting. But, when I reviewed the days goings-on I recognized this as an opportunity to shut people out and I just brushed it away. Kinda cool!

Anyway, here's a song to Our Lady who watches over us.

Song of the Day: Thursday

Earlier this week I was feeling a bit retro. Not sure why. I played this song 4 or 5 times in a row. It definitely shows my 80s roots. I wouldn't have it any other way.

Song of the Day: Wednesday

The week has moved along at an awkward pace. I returned to work today and was just a bit of a zombie. No light, little joy. I think I laughed at a couple of things that people said, but mostly I kept my head down and tried not to think about how much I'd rather be in bed. Insomnia. Depression. Funk. Either and all seem to be the correct term.

This song has been playing in my head today. It's a bit awkward because the meaning behind this song is not what I mean. I just like the chorus: "It gets better. It gets better. It gets better. We'll get better."

Song of the Day: Tuesday

I have had a rough couple of days. Monday night I couldn't fall asleep. So, interspersed with my attempts to catch some Zs, I read. Next thing I know it's 5am and I'm still awake. I only got two hours of sleep. I stayed home from work hoping to get caught up. And again I could not sleep until the afternoon where I got three hours and seemingly ruined myself for the night. I did get to sleep, fitfully. I don't know how much sleep I got because it's best not to count when one has insomnia.

Anyway, this song seems apropos.

Song of the Day: Monday

Tonight I got off my duff and went for a walk. It's been a while since I've actually done any kind of physical activity and the scale has shown me that my body is not happy.

While I was walking, this song kept popping in my head. It's weirdly appropriate. I've begun reading a book about how we close ourselves off when we've been hurt. It is a bit mind-blowing and oddly apropos for this period of my life. One way that I do it is that I avoid difficult conversations when I worry how people will respond.

Tonight I put on my big girl panties and made the call. The person was not available to talk, but I've still opened the door for the conversation.

Song of the Day: Sunday

I'm Back! It's been a long time since I've been on this blog. I do apologize to my one follower: sorry! It's been a rough few months, but I have resolved to write again.

It's actually only been in the past week that songs have been blaring insistently in my head. And, today I have finally picked up my computer to share with you.

This song has been playing in my head tonight. I find it rather ironic because it's a break up song. But, what sticks with me is her assurance to him that she will be fine once "he" is gone. My favorite parts? "I've got my feet on the ground and I don't go to sleep to dream" and "This mind, this body, and this voice cannot be stifled by your deviant ways...."

Song of the Day: Thursday

My best childhood friend just lost her husband today. Devastating and unexpected. I mean, no one really expects people to die in spite of the fact that we all will some day. But, there is a difference between a long terminal illness and an infection that turns septic and snatches a life.

I'm heartbroken for her. I can only imagine how she feels. And this is just a few years after her father died.

They have a 5 year old daughter. And there were plans to adopt other children....

Anyway, this song seems appropriate. Blake and Miranda wrote it and Miranda sang it, but I like Cassadee Pope's rendition.